Author Archives: Hannah Parker

It’s been one year since my dad passed. I don’t think I could miss him more if I tried. I can count the days I’ve thought about calling, the days I’ve missed him, the days I was reminded of him. … Continue reading →

Happy Birthday, Goat Dad. You would’ve turned 69 today. You would’ve ‘slept in’ and joked about how it’s still special on your birthday even though you can do it every day when you’re retired, relishing in the post-work life you … Continue reading →

My dad and I never had a relationship that we talked every day, every other day, or even every week. I think we both usually tried for once a week, but sometimes it was two, sometimes a little over. My … Continue reading →

Truth be told, I was anxious anticipating my birthday this year. I wasn’t sure what I would feel or how it would go. It ended up being a really great weekend and an incredible day. The weather was beautiful so … Continue reading →

I’m writing because I need to feel close to my dad. As time goes on, I feel more distant. I write because it seems to be the best way for me to be able to articulate all my thoughts and … Continue reading →

I broke down last night. I could feel it coming. I laid in bed unable to fall asleep for a while. I got up to get a snack with the intention of sitting in the living room and reading my … Continue reading →

Today is one month since my dad passed away. I woke up in the middle of the night and couldn’t fall back asleep. But I couldn’t bear to look at the time and be able to know if it was … Continue reading →

I internalize a lot. Writing gives me the opportunity to bring my feelings and emotions to the forefront and actually work through them. I intellectualize my feelings most of the time. I struggle the most with the ones that I … Continue reading →

Yesterday and today were particularly hard. What has kept me up the past couple of nights has shifted. Typically, it has been missing my dad. Wishing I could call him and tell him updates on my life, tell him what’s … Continue reading →

Today is January 28th, 2024. Last Sunday, January 21st, I realized it was exactly 3 weeks into the New Year. I realized after I signed the papers to sell my dad’s house. In 3 weeks, my dad went to the … Continue reading →